So Not Okay

I've always heard peoe talking about somethibg hurting so bad that they throw up from it.  The thought if that level of pain freaked me out, and I've had babies.  Anyway, I'm at this point with my back pain.  Thing is, the pain isn't at a level that I thought it be for this.  It's constant and evil.  Trust me when I say ut hurts a lot, but to lose my stomach?  I wonder why it happens.  I could see if it was a sudden pain, but this is not.  It is very deep in my core, though.  Hmmm. Nothing helps, either.  Not muscle relaxers.  Not pain pills.  PT is making it so much worse, too.

I think it's going to snow.  I'm over winter.  Ugh.

Physical Therapy

I had my first physical therapy appointment today.  This was the first time anybody has actually oistened when I talked about my pain.  He said I already knew most of it, do he just gave me the rest of the information needed to figure this out.  I have at home stuff I have to do, which isn't hard at all.  Hopefully I'll feel better soon.

It's snowing.  It can stop.  They say it will continue through to Saturday.  Not cool, Illinois.  I have a road trip planned.  This needs to stop.  It's certainly pretty, but I don't want to drive in it.  So far it looks like the roads have been plowed and salted.  We'll see if they keep it up.  Experience tells me no.  Prove me wrong!

My bqck is screaming.  Seriously, the PT is going to make me cry.  I get that it's just pain fron working the areas, but ouch.  Hopefully I can power through.

I want somebody to come make me something yummy for dinner.  I'm lazy and I don't want to cook.  Maybe I'll just go pick up a lasagna or something.  Steak would be good, but it's too expensive.  Crab legs?  No, again, too much.  I need another job to buy decadent foods.

Getting Angry

My GP doesn't believe me.  I saw her yesterday.  My back/chest/joint pain isn't any better.  She looked at me and sighed.  You could tell she thought I was, at best, exaggerating.  No, no I'm not.  She offered me physical therapy for 6 weeks.  Sure, lets see if this helps.  Hopefully it will, because I'm tired of crying until I'm exhausted enough to sleep through the pain.

I'm going to Kansas this weekend.  My sister got tickets to see George Strait, so yay!  The drive might kill me, but I'm determined to go.  I've stopped doing fun things, and that's just sad.  Anyway, I'm excited to do this.

Hey, snow, go away!  Seriously, go away.  I'm over it.  Christmas would have been fine.  It's most of the way through January.  Stop it.  I'm not all about the white stuff.  Not even a little bit.  Still need that vacation home.  Anybody need a sugar baby?

So Cold

It is so damn cold outside.  I really hate the cold.  It's currently 9 degrees.  That's just too cold for my old self.  I hear it might get warmer later in the week.  Is it sad that I'm looking forward to 30?  It feels like a heatwave.

I took the 14 year old to the doctor today.  She's got yhis freaky rash all over her torso.  They tested her for strep.  Rapid test says no, but that could change tomorrow.  The nurse practitioner had no idea what it was.  She has some neds because some spots look infected, but other than that, we are on a wait and see.  It's freaking me out, really.  No fever, and it doean't itch or anything.  Only my kid.

I have a doctor appointment myself in the am.  I'm really hoping that this doctor starts taking me seriously.  The pain I'm in is getting out of control.  I'm not doing anything I want because of the pain.  It's getting hard to do the things I have to do.  That just can't be good.  How do I get yhem to pay attention?  It's so very frustrating.

The 15 year old had her play rhis weekend.  HUGE success.  Seriously, it was so good.  Now to rest for about 2 seconds beforw the next play.  Oy!

Yikes

I'm being attacked by my own hair.  The building I'm working in this morning is so full of static that my hairbis standing out.  It's starting to attack my face, which is rather unpleasant.  It's like little fingers of annoying.  Similar to having a sibling attached to your head.  It keeps touching me, and touching it back makes it so much worse.  Ah, winter in the Midwest.

I give up trying to figure out just what my body is doing.  I'm in pain all of the time, but that isn't even my issue.  Well, it is, but not really.  My issue is that, without doing anything different, I'm suddenly in can't function pain.  Sleeping hurts.  Then I wake up and boom, back to basically the low level again.  I'll be honest, it feels like I might be ina fight club, but I haven't done anything.  My bed is rather new (got it last July). I'm not doing anything physical outside of work, and even that is slower than normal the last month and a half.  I don't get it.  Doctor says (and has said since last May) that there is nothing wrong.  What the hell?  This really has got to stop.  

My 15 year old has her school play this weekend.  It is mandatory for all but the freshman class.  I've never seen a more tired looking group of kids.  The play is looking good, though.  I'm doing hair and makeup (like I do for all of my kids plays).  The entire process is fun on some twisted level.  I don't enjoy getting home at 10:30 every night, but still, good times.  The girl child is enjoying herself, and that's what counts.

Winter has decided to visit us.  Isn't that nice?  It snowed last Saturday, now it's planning on snowing tomorrow.  No!  Christmas is over.  The white stuff isn't needed anymore.  Heck, I could handle that if it would just be warmer than 17 degrees!  I need a winter home.

Wow

The winter weather this year has been less rhan winter like.  I haven't worn anything but a light jacket through the majority of it.  That certainly changed on Friday.  Okay, it was still pretty warm on Friday, but that actually didn't help us.  

The rain came at us hard.  I think we got 3 inches, which isn't a ton really, but it was enough.  You see, after the rain fell, the temperature started to drop.  The city insisted they were ready with salt trucks/snow plows.  We had no idea how much of anything we qould get as the forecast changed constantly.  Took yhe 14 year old to take high school placement tests 8n the am.  It wasn't bad.  Chilly and wet, but not bad.  Picked her up for cheer, temps haf dropped.  Then it started snowing.

When this city says they are ready, what they really mean is they are inside drinking hot chocolate and watching Frozen.  They were NOT on anybof the major roads that I had to be on.  Teen girl had her last 7/8 grade dance.  It was not cancelled, and I couldn't not take her.  It was an exercise in terror.  Interstate (in town) road, not salted, not plowed.  Snow route road, not salted, not plowed.  I slid a lot.  I got stuck spinning my tires.  Picki g her up was better, they had done something to the interstate road.  The snow route was a joke.  Somebody plowed 4 blocks of it.  Four blocks.  On one side.  We made it home in one piece, so I'm happy.  Still, they need to look up what prepared actually means.

I know that we need the snow/rain.  Drought is bad.  But I'm good if the snow and cold temperatures don't really come back.  The Midwest is really the wrong place for me to live.  It wasn't so baf in Colorado.  Then again, I didn't have wind blowing off of a body of water, either.  I wonder if moving is in my budget...

Good News, Same News

No iron this round!  Yay!  Seriously. I still have lumps in my veins from the last infusion.  I do have to keep going back every 3 months.  That's fine.  I'm hoping eventually my body will stop trying to kill me.  

I still hurt, but the level is down considerably.  The desire to jump up and down and get excited is there, but I'd probably hurt myself in the process.  Creating more pain would be a very bad idea.  So in my gead I'm celebrating.  On the outside I can't help but wonder how long it will last.

We are in for rain, wind, snow, cold temps, warm temps, junk weather.  Maybe.  They don't realky know, and that scares me just a little bit.  Don't weather people enjoy throwing out some sort of prediction?  What's up with keeping it close?  Or is it the Apocalypse?  And me without plans.  LoL. Hopefully whatever it does is short lived.  Heck, send half of it to Australia.  They need the rain. 

Anybody else still have their Christmas tree up?  We generally wait until January 6, and then the week got in the way.  Part of my issue is where to put it.  I really don't have any room for it.  The tree does need to come down, though.  It's pathetic, I'm aware 

I'm so tired, but I don't want to lie down.  I'd like to stay up all day.  That usually foesn't work out, but I would like to at least try.  As long as there is no falling asleep while driving, we're good, right?

Enjoy your Friday!  Don't float away, or blow away, or get iced over, or any other weirdness like that.  Stay safe, make some memories!